On Sunday mornings, I sat and followed along with my pointer finger as our teacher, Miss Charity, read Bible stories of David whipping the butt of Goliath and Noah and his big ole floating zoo with every creature times two. There my seven-year-old self sat in a smocked, lace dress, matching fancy socks, and patent leather shoes that squeezed my toes. I smiled and acted reverent. It was a charade. I was miserable. It was only during the prayer that I could sneak stares out the window and dream of being home where I would kick off church clothes and transform into the real me, the barefooted pony rider with one speed ... full throttle.
It was easy to peek during the prayer; I always had a warning whistle of the closing, “In Jesus’ name,” as my clue to slam my eyes shut before the grand finale of “Amen.”